the first entry

The First Entry.

Who knows where the story really starts...

We could begin with “Once upon A time...” and pretend that my story will end like a fairy tale, I assure you that won't be the case here. We will have entries with categories that pertain to certain parts of my life so that people can skip entries that might not pertain to them, and it might help me stay on track, who knows I guess we will find out together. I want to take this entry to just talk about my current life and what is the most prominent in my life right now.

My name is Jes, I am a thirty-year-old, Gemini, mother of four amazing children. I own and operate a childcare facility full-time, make crafts & food deliveries with my partner, and of course wrangle the children day in and day out. As I mentioned in my “Why A Blog” entry I have several autoimmune diseases and am neurodivergent so that can make life difficult at times. I have learned to take life as the punches come rather than laying awake at night wondering when the next time my world was going to come crashing down around me. I swear I have picked up the pieces of my world more times than any one person should have too. After the first few times you start to wonder if you are the problem and if you will ever be more than the situation around you.

 I know my worth now, I know I am meaningful to the people around me, I know they would miss me if I was no longer around. That makes waking up and getting out of bed everyday a little more worth it. Knowing I make a difference in people's lives is really my driving factor in this world. If I was unable to help people than life as I know it would mean nothing. Even though I have never been quite sure what career would anchor me down I do know it will involve helping others in some fashion. I worked at a call center once and I will never, EVER be so unhappy at a workplace ever in my life, it isn’t worth your own mental health. I believe kids have always been in my career destiny as well, per the daycare of course. When I worked in healthcare, I believed I would move to a city with a Children’s Hospital so that I could have the opportunity to work there.

In the last four years I have grown in astronomical ways, none of this growth has come easy, nor has it come without pain or suffering. If we cannot learn from our mistakes than what is the point of life? Every time I have been knocked down, I get up stronger, I don’t let tiny thing bother me, I learn to not be defensive every time someone tells me something (boy let me tell you this has been the hardest to learn). I have been in the healthiest relationship I thought was just a clout that people talked about, a front they put on to make people think they had an amazing life. Well, I found that, it does exist so don’t give up. Most importantly believe in yourself, your intuition, your body, it knows when something is not right so listened to it. Listen to yourself, cleanse your body and your environment when its needed. Bring back practices that are still used in parts of the world that are much healthier than us.

Oh yeah, I am pretty scrunchy, not quite full crunchy but definitely not silky. If you don’t know these terms at some point, I will make an entry that talks about the difference in the two. What I am saying is that at 30 years old I am feeling the most confident in my skin that I ever have. I am still learning who I am every single day. Own who you are, do not attempt to mold yourself to the persona of what others want or think you should be.

That's all for this one.

xo